This quickly typed blog post is all about one of my favorite mommy groups: Mother Of Preschoolers. There are things that make it wonderful such as always hot coffee, speakers on every parenthood topic you could think of, friends who are in the same season as you and many play-dates. I did mention hot coffee right? My story though today is not about those things, it’s about how I grew in Jesus in the place I never thought possible: a motherhood group.
3 years ago, I sat at my table in Ohio, and I felt something come over me. A feeling I have never felt before. For some reason I started praying. I felt like Esmeralda in The Hunchback of Notre Dame as I said, “I don’t know if you can hear me, or if you’re even there. I don’t know if you will even listen to my prayer, but I’d like to grow more in Jesus and I would like to be shown an outlet to not only become a better mother, but friend.” The next day my husband came home and told me that we were moving to Texas.
Following our move, a week later, I once again prayed for that same outlet, and as I opened my computer to check Facebook, an ad popped up for MOPS. Literally the green guy from Ralph Breaks The Internet popped up. There it was. It’s like Jesus created that ad just for me to see in that moment.
I joined MOPS during the we are the starry eyed theme. I came in at a time when my thoughts about Jesus were cloudy and I just didn’t have a clear view on where life was taking me. Starry Eyed means looking for the light even when darkness is enveloping. It is an opportunity to hope recklessly and to witness God’s presence guiding things seen and unseen, comfortable and uncomfortable. Toward the end of the year, my cloudy nights were turning into beautiful clear skies full of light from the stars, making me feel free.
The second year, free indeed, I was driven to the call to be on leadership as a table leader. I just finally started to see clarity in my walk with Jesus, gaining friendships who kept me faithful in my walk with him, stress from being a mother was practically nonexistent, my marriage was strong and I was happy. All because I found Jesus. I was free and in being a table leader, I wanted others to find this. As MOPS stated, going first is about being courageous enough to take steps before you are ready, to share the details of your journey, extend invitations, conquer fears, and lead the way for friends and kids and family. In fact, one of the best ways to advocate for others’ freedom is to go first ourselves, and then we can share with courage and honesty because we have found the keys that can set others free. We go first so that we can set other captives free.
Finally, that brings us to our current year, find your fire. The theme is all about transformation, and I can honestly say, Jesus has transformed me. Take me. Mold me. Use me. Fill me. These past 3 years my life has been the potters hand song and while it is my job to tend to the fire that now burns daily for Jesus, my match blew out as I left the local MOPS group that helped me see the version of myself I was intended to be and we left for another adventure in Texas. However, I smile as I think of all the matches and fires that I ignited while my time there. As Mandy says, some women fear the fire, but me I want to douse it in fuel and make it as big as it can possibly be. I came into MOPS a cloudy starry eyed nervous mother and I’m here today shouting from the roof tops yelling the name of Jesus and I absolutely love where the path of motherhood is going.
I am a firm believer that our move to Texas wasn’t for my husband, but for me, and that brings me to tears that Jesus loves me that much. How all these themes lined up with my faith walk, my life and yet when He knew His work in me was finished and it was time to move on, to give someone else the experience I had, I felt the entire movement, clear as day spoken words, “You are ready. You are full.” Which is amazing how next years theme is: to the fullest.
When people ask me how I found Jesus I always answer, “I didn’t. He found me.”
King James Version
“Behold, I stand at the door, and knock:
if any man hear my voice, and open the door,
I will come in to him,
and will go with him, and he with me.”